At the end of the year, I like to reflect on what I've done, what I haven't done, and what I want to do the following year. This year is no exception, except this year I am feeling so proud of what a year 2016 has been. I've been challenged in new ways, learned a lot about myself and can honestly say I feel something I haven't really felt in this capacity before: peaceful.
Does this mean things in my life are perfect? HELL NO.
I still have new goals for next year. I still have things I need to work on. I still have a lot of 'what-ifs'. You know what the difference is though? I feel at peace with that. It's really strange when you're someone who is so goal driven, so plan focused, so future oriented to have this weird sense of calm. It's semi-euphoric.
Maybe it has something to do with two 4-day weekends in a row and some additional days off here and there. Maybe it's the California sun really sinking into my New York tough skin. Maybe it's just, OMG-dare I say it, getting older? Whatever it is, I like it. I embrace it. I am starting 2017 with it. A nice companion to jog side by side the focused marathon runner, whispering that she'll get to the end of that race one way or another.
Here are the things I am proud of from 2016 that I am taking with me into 2017 and onward:
1. I'm staying focused while giving myself a chance to breathe and unfocus when I need to. If I want to spend the only time I have to myself during Sunday naptime watching a marathon of RHOC, I will do it-GUILT FREE.
2. I'm being more empathetically well-rounded, not just about my kids, about my husband, and about myself. Damn, that's big. I'm trying hard to not get to the point where I literally melt down on anyone in my house that asks me for something because I've been ignoring my own requests for the past 3 months.
3. I'm trying new things. I moved to a new place. I started this blog-ok, and finally sharing it. I'm not staying in the comfort zone (aka the boring zone).
4. I changed and probably will change my plan again and again and again. And not because I couldn't do it, because it needed to change, like life often does.
5. I'm learning more about what is right for me. See above. In the end, it's got to feel right. If it doesn't, it's got to change. It might not change overnight, but it will.
So, here's to 2017. May it be a combination of smiles and tears, interesting adventures and positive atmospheres, loving homes and successful careers, accomplishing goals and overcoming fears, old and new friends and saying "Cheers" over beers. Wishing you all a very happy New Year's! XoXx